I've been thinking about this on and off lately. I have been practicing for a long time, but it was only in the last 2 years that I started writing things down with any regularity. Before then everything that I knew had to just be kept in my head. It worked out alright I think, but I wonder what information may have been lost to time and hiding. I also only started having an altar space when I moved into my own place in 2013. At least before that I had a box I kept everything in. Well most everything. Thinking back on it I feel like I was part closeted, while not entirely closeted, and in various states of that depending on where I lived. It's interesting to look back on how this all shaped some of the associations I use and how it has shaped my practice. I'm not even sure how I feel about it all.
Has anyone else had experiences or thoughts on these kinds of things? I am not really looking for comfort or answers of any kind. I am just at this time sitting with these thoughts and wondering if anyone else has experiences they'd like to share or mull over.