Here I am, a begginer from Italy who desperately needs a community.

Hi there! I start by explaining the title. I "desperately need a community" for two main reasons: - I don't know anyone in person who practices witchcraft or who is as much interested as I am. - I'm agnostic/atheist and this makes me very confused, but since I've read that there actually are atheist witches, I've decided to try. Unfortunately, I'm pretty sure that there are no italians here, but it's not a problem, I just hope that you all would want to share your experiences with me, especially if you are atheists, because if feels like we are very few in the witchcraft community, although maybe I'm wrong...? I hope so... I've always been drawn to magic, folklore, nature... But especially with magic, I clearly remember always doing "spells" and "potions" (of course not actual ones, although I lactually used spices, as far as I can remember) when I was a little girl and at some point I also remember that I had started to think that I could search for actual books about witchcraft in book shops, but I still was very confused between reality and fiction. In general, growing up, I walked away from religion (Catholicism, since, you know... ITALY), but started to feel some kind of spirituality on my own, although if I'm not really capable of firmly believe in things I can't see. The only thing I "know" is that there are things I like to think about and that make me feel good, things that I would really want to believe in and I feel like maybe there is "something" in nature and between all humans. And because of all these things, especially looking back to when I was a dreamy little girl (you know, a little bit of Anne of Green Gables), I also like to think that there's something "magical" inside of me that brought me "here". Anyway, now I'd like to talk about the things that make me confused the most. Basically, I don't know where to start and this makes me very frustrated too. I've bought a book, "Drawing Down The Moon" by Margot Adler (I'll put a link, so that you can see what it tells about), but obviously it's not enough. Have you got some suggestions (about books, but everything you want too) for someone who wants to learn to practice without any religion/deities? I've read that atheist witches rely on themselves, the universe, their own psyche, etc but it's still too wide as a "spectrum" and too confusing. I've also read everywhere that anyone can "custom" their craft, but I still can't understand how...? If I don't follow any religion, where do I start from? Everything always feels like "stealing" from other beliefs, if you know what I mean. I can't tell if some spells, rituals, etc are linked to a specific religion or if they can fit for everyone, especially I can't tell if they can fit for atheists. How do I do it?! Thank you anyway for reading my post. If this is the wrong section (or if there is one that it's better for my questions), please tell me! I really, really hope to find beautiful and magical people to talk to! P.S. Here's the article that -after years of wondering on the internet and in my mind trying to decide and understand what to do- convinced me to try and not being too scared (although I couldn't tell that I'm not): https://medium.com/@Vi_LaBianca/confessions-of-an-atheist-witch-24c659ecb700 And the book I've bought: https://www.amazon.it/Drawing-Down-Moon-Witches-Goddess-worshippers/dp/0143038192/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1566576118&sr=8-2