Hello coven! I hope everyone is having a good morning, evening, or night!
I'm a baby witch and I have a lot of questions when it comes to witchcraft. I, sadly, am quite young which means I still live with my parents and they are both strong Christians. When I stumbled upon Olivia's channel, I was happy to hear that I'm not the only one who has, or had, to deal with this issue. I've been intrigued with witchcraft and everything in connection to it ever since I was about in elementary, I even did some spells! However considering my parents, I was in big trouble, even being told that I was messing with the devil. Of course being very young I believed it, after quite some time I got pulled in again and I fell in love. I believe that I am a healer and have psychic abilities but I am too scared to activate them in fear of getting in trouble. I don't really have any support around me when it comes to my craft but knowing that there's a whole community makes me quite hopeful for my future. I've started to work with sigils and minor cleansing spells, but recently I feel my psychic abilities are slowly awakening because I have now become more sensitive to hidden presents in rooms and such, I am quite scared of it. I would like to be able to control it and continue to grow further in it but I am worried about meeting unwanted spirits. How does one become less fearful of this? I would much appreciate any tips and advice with this because I worry for the safety of myself and my family.
~Sincerely, Kiwi Flores
I completely understand where you are coming from. I grew up with a sexist Catholic father who made any action that I made that wasn't to his liking a sin. He constantly called those actions "being influenced by the devil". Just know you have support here. Also try to find your own inner strength. You are powerful and strong ^^ I am still in the broom closet when it comes to family, so I do little things like picking up feathers I find, or seashells when I go to the beach, or flowers I like. And I place them on my shelf, which is my altar (but the family doesn't know that, just looks like fun trinkets to them). Good luck
Thank you for your kind words and the advice, I haven't set an an alter exactly but I have an area set up with little trinkets and such that help me charge my positive energy!
You have to remember that nothing new comes into being when you open your eyes, you just start to see it. Think about it this way: All those things that you're noticing and are scaring you were already there, and probably didn't hurt you before. Most entities aren't concerned with any of us, they don't really want to go out of their way to hurt us, but some do, and to protect yourself, you just have to use your gifts. Obviously, you've been connected to the craft since you were young, you just need to re-awaken what you're good at without tools. For example, I've found using my breath to be very powerful. For you it might be something else, in fact it probably is, but the point is, if you can find out what you can do with absolutely no tools, you can practice safely, both from negative entities, and from your parents. But, overall just understand, just because something looks dark and scary doesn't mean its mean, and vice versa; if a bright shining entity comes down from the heavens offering help, that doesn't necessarily mean it has your best interest at heart. Try not to be fearful, but don't be naive either. Just remember, most entities are neutral, you can do magic that looks completely mundane, and headphones are golden.
Thank you for the mental notes, I will for sure keep them all in mind. I actually feel a neutral spirit in my own bedroom, at random I would feel a comforting sensation on my back as if someone was hugging me from behind or rubbing my back. I do try to talk to it, let it know I mean no harm and see if they would show themselves to me, nothing has happen so far but I don't feel threatened.
As a young witch myself with Christian parents, it's really just better to stay in the broomcloset until you turn 18 (in my opinion anyway). Just remember that whatever you truly believe, is, so if you say that you're a healer and a psychic then I'll believe you 100%. There's really no advice I can give you about your parents, but all I can say is if you want to activate your abilities I find it best to surround yourself with people that actually want the best for you. You can't exactly boot your parents out of your life as you're still dependant on them, but there are many ways you can practice in secret ;)
Anyway, I hope this helped make you feel a bit better about your situation. I'm not the best with words, so I don't know how well this is going lol
Have a blessed, magickal day!! :)
As a broom closet dweller myself, I can say that meditation is probably one of the easiest ways to practice and improve. You don't have to do the whole criss cross, surrounded by candles sorta thing. It could just be putting on some relaxing music in the background (headphones are very useful) and just taking a couple minutes out of your day to relax, let your mind wander, or just sit there, do nothing, and just feeling the space around you. If you'd like a little more advice and guidance, I would recommend headspace, you can find it on the app store. I hope this helps!
Baby witch here too. I'm much older but still so green in this regard. This forum will be helpful for all of us - I think! :)