In case it's not obvious, I am a beginner with tarot. I became interested mostly because of all the beautiful decks and artwork. I had more of a "collector's mindset" with them. But I didn't feel right buying up a bunch of decks just because they were pretty without at least learning some basic, general info about tarot. The more I sought, the more I learned, the more I learned the more I wanted to know. And here we are 😁
I bought my first deck recently, Ethereal Visions by Matt Hughes. It seemed to have similar-enough artwork to a typical Rider-Waite deck to be understood by a newbie but still very beautiful and unique. And to be honest I also bought it mainly because the moon card damn near screamed at me when I was searching for decks. I was actually pretty much set on buying a different deck when I saw this one on the Instagram page and that moon card just called to me. Story time aside, I wanted to share some confusion and doubts I have on learning to read.
I understand the general consensus about reading tarot is that it's a very individual, intuition-based thing. Even though the cards have a universal meaning or definition, at the end of the day it's your intuition and inner voice that you should listen to. What YOU feel and what YOU interpret of the cards is what makes the reading successful. As a practical-minded, over-analyzing, fact-confirming person, this terrified and confused me. It scared me a little because if that's the case, what's stopping me from sending someone down a life path that is completely wrong for them just because of what I interpreted in the cards? Then I had a moment of understanding and acceptance since I've had plenty of occasions where I should have listened to my own intuition and would have been better off.
Sadly, I fell back into the confused, not-trusting-the-method part again. On the one hand, I'm at what might be considered the best stage of learning... which is knowing little to nothing at all. The benefit being in that because I know so little the cards are open to any and all interpretations on my behalf without interference of "textbook definitions" or other people's interpretations. My concern with this is that... what's stopping me from stretching a meaning or story to fit what I'm seeking or desire deep down? Where's the baseline or limit? At what point does it stop being intuition and turns into imagination and/or projection? I guess my confusion lies in being told to be on both sides at the same time: "Use the definitions as a guide... but it's not a rule book!" Follow your inner voice and intuition... but understand the symbols and imagery!"
I don't want to influence myself with a set of meanings but I can't just let my mind run rampant and make up whatever the hell I want. Can anyone help this tarot toddler learn her ABCs?