Im having a hard time connecting or finding who or what i honor and seek for guidance. I do not have any pulls towards gods or goddesses. I dont particularly feel any "spirits" are helping my work like spells. Idk i just see people saying they honor this god or goddess. They call on spirit or spirit. I guess maybe im having a hars time pinning down who or what SPIRIT is. Idk. I know the feeling of magic. It feels. But when doing spells or work at my alter i dont no who to "talk" to when sending out my intentions or spell incantations. Maybe im over thinking it. Maybe its because Spirit doesnt or hasnt been given a firm definition to me. Maybe its bc i was raised Christian and will that i knew who was to blame to "bad" and who provided "good." Can i just address the energy i feel? Idk help haha this literally has me stuck in my practice. I just feel blocked.
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You can follow anything you want. It is your practice. Try to meditate about what or who you want to follow. If you want to just call it energy, you absolutely can.
I myself call to the Moon and the Universe. I feel the most connected when I say Universe than I do spirit. For me calling on “Spirit” just does not feel right. But Universe feels amazing to me. As for a god/goddess I use the Moon. I refer to is as Mother Moon and I also pray and thank all of the Moon Gods and Goddesses within the Universe. this is what works and feels right to me. Do what feels right to you. There is no right or wrong way to pray. There is no right or wrong God or Goddess to pray to, just do what works for you. The same goes for an alter. I do not have an alter myself and I talk and pray to the Moon and the Universe whenever it feels right for me. It has worked wonders going on instinct and what feels right for me. Try using different words and see which one fits and feels best for you. Good luck! Let us know what you came up with! Remember there is no right or wrong way, it is your own path no one can choose it for you.
Unfortunately, for a lot of folks "spirit" is in that vastly annoying "you'll know it when you see it" category. For me, it's been a feeling of connection, of things being "right" as opposed to "a little off" or similar; in some extreme cases, I can almost hear voices telling me, "Yeah, you found it!" :-)
I'm one of those folks who works deity-free; I've been a "science guy" for decades and as a result it just doesn't feel right to call/pray/dedicate to deity. (That said, I also embrace the idea that if I could evolve from a fortuitous mix of inanimate chemical compounds, then so could multiple forms of life with powers I'd call "godlike" -- I just haven't met any. Yet.) I work with energy, and will direct any requests or calls to the Universe in general. (Heck, who's to say anything that big and that old hasn't developed an intelligence of its own?!?) If you're not connecting with any of the deities you've been told about, heard about, read about, etc. then it's possible you just don't need to. The most important voice to listen to is that small, quiet voice inside your mind that might be saying, "Um, no" or "Aaahh... yeahhhh..." Don't try to force things. You're already working with energy so concentrate just on that -- feel its ebb and flow, work on keeping your intentions and visualizations clear, and let that carry your work forward. As you learn more, your practice may remain deity-free... or one day you may find yourself having a totally unexpected conversation within your mind with one or more deity figures or archetypes that fit the bill. Again: don't force it, let it (whatever "it" may be) happen in a natural progression within your practice.
For me, it's a sort of feeling in my chest, kind of like my heart sinking, but in a good way?? At any rate, that's when I know the magick is working.
When I feel spirits or gods and goddesses it feels like a magnet drawing me in.