Before I ask my question, I have to give some context.
I was invited for a picnic near my childhood neighborhood and took that as a chance to go back to have a walk around before meeting up with everyone. I had been dreaming vividly about this area, so I figured I could feel some nostalgia and maybe reconcile some unconscious problems that maybe I needed to figure out. A double mental whammy!
So I start walking around my childhood neighborhood. Going trough the area in such deep nostalgia and fascination that I had to take my headphones off to just feel the vibes fully. It felt like walking trough a dream, it was surprisingly trippy. One point as I walked past a place that reminded me of some childhood hurt, I stopped to think.
"This still hurts me. It's been 20 years and still I feel it."
I was asking myself why I felt like that. After a couple of deep breaths the bad vibes started melting away. And then it clicked.
As a child you don't have control, you are basically a sapling that is being taken care of. A little rooted plant that needed some help from gardeners. And in my case instead of attention from the gardeners, water and sun I got the opposite and dried up for a long time. I stayed small for a long time...
Standing there where I remember the drought, the little sapling that didn't always get what it needed to grow into a flower...
I felt like now I stood there as a flower. A flower that figured out how to bloom all by herself.
I felt powerful. I felt like a survivor. I knew I didn't need to fear the past anymore. It made me into the flower I grew into today.
I imagined that I put all this hurt into a pebble, and throwing it in the ocean to be cleansed.
After that I have felt like a million bucks. I feel light, strong, confident. I feel amazing!
Here is the question:
What would you call this kind of a moment? It felt incredibly magical, and special. I tried to articulate it and figure out what I could call that experience of realization and mental cleansing. Is there a term for it?
Thank you so much for reading if you made it this far. Just writing this out felt really good, and I hope you get a similar feeling from reading it.
Sending some love vibes to everyone. ❤️