All of my life, I have had nightmares and weirdly prophetic dreams. I'm used to them. They dont scare me. I usually wake up thinking, "Woohoo I got my head chopped off last night then I took it and started rolling down a hill hurrah! How strange. Moving on."
Vivid dreams are just a side effect, part of my future telling, I have found. Usually, I can tell when i am dreaming and shape them to my will. But for the past week, its like my will is stripped from me when I dream. And I wake up every hour after having horrid nightmares that leave me weeping. I can no longer tell the difference when I dream. It feels real, even after I have wokem back up.
I don't know what to do. Even more vivid dreams? Great. But there is nothing, but gut wrenching nightmares in my skull. I am afraid to go to my cards and see what they have to say. And i am avoiding taking long showers in case I go into a trance.
Please help. A good protection spell? Sleep well spell? I dunno...
I don't have a spell for you, but maybe a couple of ideas that I hope could help you move in a helpful direction. Right now, fear is running rampant everywhere; people are afraid of getting sick, of running out of what they need, of losing income, of losing jobs, of losing loved ones... the list goes on, but the bottom line is that the vast majority of humans on the planet are broadcasting fear and uncertainty. If you're empathic, you're going to be absofreakinglutely drowning in those feelings of terror and loss and uncertainty. I don't know you well enough to suggest something specific, but from what you wrote you've already had some practice at separating yourself from your dreams; lean heavily on that experience. In whatever way works for you: center & ground yourself; tune in your own inner voice, find the energy in your own core (I promise you that it's there, maybe hiding but still there), and use them to muffle and limit the cacophony of terrified, negative signals flooding your mind. Concentrate on the "you" that is in your mind and consciously build it up, concentrate on its strengths, consciously magnify it in your thoughts. That should -- perhaps quickly, perhaps over a number of days -- crowd out the "stuff" coming in to your mind from outside (or at least enough of it to muffle the noise and let you get some rest).
"the bottom line is that the vast majority of humans on the planet are broadcasting fear and uncertainty" I felt those words the second before I read them. This didn't even occur to me (with all the stuff I'm dealing with right now), so thank you for mentioning that. I forgot I was an empath for a while there >.<
I don't dream very often, and when I do, I cannot tell the difference between my actual memories and my dreams. Mine are very different in that it's just everyday things that happen normally: conversations, finding lost items, places I've visited, people I've met before. However, they are very vivid, detailed and real. If you have someone you can talk to about the dreams after you've had them, it might help settle you out afterward. I usually ask my husband about the conversation, or visiting places and what not and once he clarifies that it didn't happen, it helps. I did, actually, have one really bad dream where it was basically The Purge and I woke up to my neighbors fighting and slamming doors so I was really frazzled waking up that day and I ended up talking about it with my hubby and that helped me kind of remember that it didn't actually happen. It might not help as much as you'd like, but it's at least a little slice of reality.
P.S.: (It's 3am, ignore this part if it doesn't feel right to you <3) Do you think journalling the nightmares could help you? I wonder if you could maybe pick up on some patterns? Maybe in some weird, twisted, unseen way, your brain is subconsciously teaching you something you can use in the future, or preparing you for something? If something is familiar, it tends to be easier to deal with; perhaps the dreams are abstract metaphors and the more you experience that metaphor, the easier it will be for your brain to process later. Just speculation. Keep digging.
Ive had the same thing happen to me several times, the two most recent being the "WW111" scare and a lockdown due to guns on my campus. Nightmares nonstop. And I have had deja vus, whatever you want to call them, that Ive dreamt about, in detail, before they happened. Sometimes months, weeks, and nights before. So many times. But I am not developed enought to control them, or realise Im dreaming. I have no idea how to.
What I did to stop the vivid nightmares, was an old, simple ritual. What you need:
Rosemary stem
Black tourmaline
Moonwater
Salt
Cast a circle or prep however you do before spells, including cleansing and grounding, etc. Place the tourmaline and rosemary (I reccommend cleansing them as well) in the middle of your bed, on top of it.
I use visualization for this part, but use what works for you. Clean off your bed, take everything off, the mattress if you really feel like it. Until the bed is bare. Then visualise (or smudge, any other way of cleansing) a pure rush of the calmest, gentlest energy, and let it settle into the frame. Run your hand along it if you need to, to ground it.
Then place the rosemary and tourmaline wherever you feel is the best pinpoint for them. I put the tourmaline under my bed near the headboard, and the rosemary at the left foot of my bed.
Finally, for anchoring and strengthened protection, sprinkle moon water and salt around your bed, counterclockwise.
Finalise the spell however you want, whether chant or clearing the circle, anything that works.
Other things you can sprinkle around the bed:
Acorn shell, luck and protection. Same with clover.
Lavender for calming and easing of paranoia.
Jasmine or cornflower to help with the dream divination. If you do these two, sprinkle them clockwise.
My worst case of the worlds fear affecting me, was the night I broke this spell. I sold my bedframe to revamp my room, and had to take it all apart. That night, I slept on my floor on the mattress alone, and had a series of nightmares. Then I woke up only to have sleep paralysis of my room filling with people saying they were trapped, there were no doors, and they couldnt leave. Snapped out of it because my alarm is on my watch, which vibrates my whole wrist to wake me up. Lucky for that.
That night was also coincidentally the night the first Corvid 19 case was spotted in the us.