Issues I'm having:
I cleanse, but it feels like it doesn't work. Like it's not sticking, kind of like trying to write with pencil on a mirror. Sliding off with no ground. I've tried it several ways: Just plain lying on the ground, a long, scalding shower with crystals and herbs, and soaking up the moon. I like to imagine a force either going through me and little particles clinging to me being knocked off, or imagining those particles drawn to a tight circle in the middle and then push out and away from my body.
All of this happens with my materials, plants, crystals, and charm bags too.
Since I can't cleanse, it affects the entirety of what I'm doing. I can't charge because I feel like it has nothing to cling to. I have trouble setting intentions, and activating WiFi is and charms.
Because of this, I haven't even tried any spell besides a banishing/room cleansing spell(I hoped it would help. It didn't, but I feel drastically safer in my home now. Before, I was so paranoid I couldn't close my eyes)
Background on me in the comments, everything I can offer cause I want whatever I can get. I love magick and it calls to me. It feels right and like home, interesting and something im urges to pursue, but i cant with this problem.