I realize that I've been posting quite a lot since I joined a week ago and this makes me feel like I'm kind of intruding/being annoying... but I have so many questions and (teenager cowering in the broom closet) have no one to ask.
I actually have a lot of questions, so I'm just going to put it in one post, I would really appreciate any help or advice given to me. Sorry if this is really long, but I have so much I want to know!
I've seen a lot of witchy things saying your natal chart is very important and you need to keep this in mind while practicing witchcraft, but I personally feel like it is wrong and I am not the person my astrological signs define me as (I have read tons of stuff about this but I don't act/feel like that). I really don't mean to offend anybody who truly does believe in this, but I would like to know if zodiacs are very important to witchcraft or if I can do fine without them, because it really is starting to get to me.
Exhaustion after Cartomancy
I think that's the correct term when you do tarot with playing cards, I'm not sure... But my question is, is it normal to feel absolutely exhausted after reading cards? I am aware that spellwork can drain you, but what about tarot? I did an especially long session today, and feel really lethargic right now.
When can I Charge Moonwater?
Is it okay if I charge it a few days before the full moon? Because of city/building lights, will it be affected by electricity-generated lights mixing with the moonlight?
How can Scrying be Performed with Mirrors?
I've been doing a lot of research on this, but I haven't really found anything that helps me. I don't own a cauldron/black bowl and unfortunately, I am unable to become in possession of one. I read that if you use a mirror, you need a candle as well to gaze into its reflection, but will it work the same with LED candles instead? Does it matter if it's a regular mirror, do I need to do anything in particular to it? Just, overall, HELP I AM SO CONFUSED.
The Number Four
Does anyone know if seeing a specific number means something?
The day before yesterday, I was finishing up some work after school when I looked at my watch and it was exactly 4:44:44!
Last night, I set out my moonwater and set my alarm (early, to avoid my parents and so there wouldn't be any sun hitting it) and I was going to put it on 5AM, but I had this instinctive feeling to put it on 4:44 instead. I had no idea why I should do it, but I had this crazy feeling that I had to do it.
A few hours after, my entire family and I went out for a walk in the park (we need exercise with this quarantine) and later my dad said we walked 4.4 kilometers.
This is all there has been so far, but....
I think I've felt magick + some kind of spirit/deity watch over me my entire life...
When I was little I believed I could talk with the wind. It would encourage me, stroke my hair lovingly, pick up when I danced (I danced a lot with my soul, but not really my body: I wasn't very good), if I asked it to blow stronger to prove its presence it would...
As I grew older this started to disappear, but since I've introduced myself back into magick through Witchcraft, once again I have felt the wind communing with me. I wouldn't really label myself as Wiccan, but I do share some of their beliefs (the God and the Goddess + reincarnation + celebrate Sabbats + etc) and I have been wondering if maybe it was the Goddess looking over me all these years.
While growing up, I started to lose my touch with magick, while as a younger child it was my everything. Actually, I still was drawn to it, swallowing fantasy books (writing my own), drawing the Fae, listening to Celtic music (my ancestors). I always felt this longing to experience magick; I yearned for it so much it physically hurt me. But there was school, or friends/family who thought I was talking rubbish, and eventually I had to let go.
But I never did.
So, one day I decided I would become a witch. I'd actually stumbled upon this practice by accident, but I quickly fell in love with it and now I realize this is my path and I know this is who I am.
Anyway, I did tons of research, and a few of the Wiccan beliefs resonated with me (I have an atheist family, but always had a calling to some deity) and I was embraced by the wind and the earth. One day, I was sitting in my garden (actually journaling) away from my parents + sister, and my mum was playing some music that could be heard from where I was. The wind and the plants starting swaying to the beat of the song, and eventually I gave in and started to dance with them. I felt almost a presence while doing so, and I had this strange feeling, the same one I had when a young child, that the wind was with me. I looked back in my book, and started to see signs that perhaps this was the Goddess in the form of the wind, calling to me (she would have been in her Maiden form— connecting to creativity, it's spring, I'm still young, I was journaling). Several times, I asked the wind to pick up and prove it was her, and it did so.
I also had been having visions in my meditation and had connected to the Goddess Dôn (Welsh Danu), and so there were so many signs.
This is incredibly long, and I apologize sooo much, but if you have read this, please let me know what you think about all of this....
Blessed be and fair winds to you all!