Hi all! Glad to have found this little space on the Internet to interact with y'all.
So basically, this is what's going on.... I'd maybe for the past 11 years I have dealt with MAJOR artist's block. Life of course, happened, I went through six years of college, went through two years after graduating college struggling to find a job, and now I find myself on the precipice of rediscovering myself, but I feel like something is tugging me back.
I know there are some things that contribute to my block. The one thing I find myself struggling with primarily is my upbringing in a religious institution, a private Christian school for 13 years of my life from kindergarten until senior year of high school. Some memories weren't so bad, but some things have had a lasting effect more so than others and it has been taking me quite some time to "deprogram" my thought and belief system, being an active witch, if not practitioner.
Feelings of guilt, shame, and fear cloud my mind or my inspiration is stifled and struggles to get up off the ground and start flying.
What do you guys think I should do? Right now, it feels like I'm literally walking in a black forest trying to find myself again.
TL;DR - Major artist and "witch" block the past 11 years, on and off with magic, trying to find myself, wondering how I should find myself again...
Thank you for listening guys.
Being an active Witch doesn't mean you have to throw your religion out the window. The craft is what it is a practice a craft. Now if you were to say I want to be Wiccan Witch...well then your going to have some religious clashing going on. As for your message I see hope in it and see your moving forward right?...otherwise you wouldn't even notice the tugging. Get into meditating if not already you'll find some of these obstacle aren't as big as they seem and maybe get if you you can get some great peaceful time for yourself.
Do you believe in jesus?
In a way, I still do believe in God, Jesus, the Trinity. Conversely, the Devil as well.. I'm not a practicing Wiccan, but I have worked with a handful of non-Abrahamic deities/spirits/figures before.
I think definitely taking a step back and grounding myself with some shadow work should help? I know there's a way out of this, just can feel a little lonely at times..
As an artist myself, and having grown up in a very religious family, I understand.
Truthfully, what has helped me these last four years, both with my art and my mental health, is self-hypnosis. In fact, the first time I tried it, I had a major artistic breakthrough. Like, it's fueled me for four years.
There's only one person I trust with the task. You can find him on YouTube, Michael Sealey.
Give it a try. I promise, it wont hurt ;)
I shall look him up, thank you for the suggestion! <3
@wolf of hekate You're most welcome! :)