So I still call myself a newbie, I've been "on the path" since July 28th 2018 but I have not been able to get through a block that apparently no one else suffers from, I cannot feel energy.
Every beginner book about casting spells. circles, mediation, etc, require me to "feel" energy, and every beginner "energy manipulation" article I've found starts with the old "rub your hands together" bit and I never feel anything from that. I can't "raise vibrations", I can't "feel the energy" of a spell. I can't "feel the energy" of a crystal when I purchase one, even in a metaphysical shop. Whenever I go buy one the shop keep insists on me "feeling" the right crystal and I pretend I do cuz if not they won't leave me alone, but I feel no difference between a rock from my drive way and an amethyst.
When I meditate, it could be for 15 minutes or 50, I never "reach an altered state of consciousness" so I feel no different. Just sitting there in silence, listening to my breaths. Or I try a guided meditation that takes me no where.
I cast spells and they seem to work just fine but every time I do I just feel I'm talking to an inanimate object, usually a candle. It doesn't feel like I'm doing anything. I don't like to call myself a witch because of this. I feel like I'm just pretending, going through the motions, but don't feel any difference.