I am stepping back into my craft after ignoring it for about 7 years. I had a bad experience where I almost cost someone their life. Getting back into I am having trouble find a coven that I can work with/get help from. My main question is what is the difference between me asking/praying to the Mother Moon for guidance and power for spells vs using my own inner power? Is it possible to be both or should it be strictly one way? I am having trouble with this mainly because I have been feeling the urge and have the dreams of the Mother and don’t know how to go about it since I do not want to endanger my 6 & 4 year old sons. Please any help or guidance would be greatly appreciated.