Hi, everyone! I am a beginner, and I have been intensely interested in starting my personal practice for a few months now, but some things have been blocking my path when it comes to getting started/getting into the right mindset. First off, I have OCD, so I have had issues with being distracted by household messes. My roommate is very messy and I feel like I have to have things perfectly clean and neat to get into the mindset do anything witchcraft-related. Right now I am still in the discovery/research stage. (If anyone has any book recommendations for ABSOLUTE beginners, that would be great!)
I also have an autoimmune disease that causes me physical pain and discomfort on a daily basis. It is very hard to concentrate on anything -- whether studying or casting a spell. I am extremely frustrated because I have been wanting to start out on my journey for months, but have not actually taken many steps to do so due to these distractions. It's like my bodily sensations as well as my surroundings need to be a certain way in order for me to start out. Does this make sense? Does anyone have any advice for dealing with this sort of thing?