I've too long a story to reveal in one post at fifty... Jeez almost fifty five years old. I'm returning to the metaphysical having left in a way for a long time. You never really leave once you know what you know what you know, you know? At any rate, I'm a Roman Catholic who transitioned to Gnostic Christianity. Marian centric I've still so much to learn academically. Thankfully that's my forte. My problem lies in my anger.
Now bear with me. I'm a Capricorn with Scorpio rising. I have a lot of other planets that soften it really to the point I've been physically, emotional, sexually etc abused. It came to a head with a crisis at fifty and I hit cognitive dissonance and got to this place I call IDGAF, level: Sage. While not a jerk, I can cut the meanest down in seconds. I can find their weakness and pluck it out. I enjoy having personal power and being willing to use it finally but the anger... Ugh. I get away from the rage (triggered by the situation that occurred) of victimization of someone and it just told it of my mouth. I have no fear.
I don't want that karma. I don't want that to get away from me and hit people who don't deserve it. While I believe in righteous anger,I also believe "sin not in your anger" and I'm hella sinning.
I'm just wondering what others do. Spells, affirmations etc. (regular meditation is difficult as I have neurology issue. Short stuff is good).
I don't want to stop being a warrior. I just need discernment over emotion.
Thanks for reading.
I'm not sure if my two cents will help at all, but I'm gonna try anyway...It's great that you've addressed this behavior with yourself, and it shows to me that you're great at introspection. Meditation is my go to for introspect and tranquility, but as that isn't an option in your case here's my suggestion.
Most important is to make sure you're in a positive frame of mind before you start. Then create a serene environment to sit in (i.e. dim lights with lit candles, the aroma of sage, a hot cup of tea, whatever calms you). Once you're in your "happy place" set your intentions into something you can carry with you every day, like a piece of jewelry, or you could make a spell bag, whatever seems right to you. Any time you feel like this anger may overcome you, take your trinket and just breathe, close your eyes if you have to. The trinket will work as a sort of trigger for your brain to go to that happy place you created when you set your intentions into the trinket.
Hope this helps. Best of luck, love!
This really speaks to me. Thank you.
Good to hear! Happy I was able to help 😊
Well. If you still have issues with abuse and trauma. I have found it helpful to write a long detailed letter about who hurt me an then burn it. This is a common psychology exercise. It gets out all of the anger in paper and it really helps. Of course being who I am I simply had to witch it up a little. When I burned it in a large pot a sprinkled a few banishing herbs with it and I asked the element of fire to burn away and transform the negativity so I can heal. Sometimes you need to go through the pain before you can heal. It can be repeated if you need to (to anyone reading this please be safe with fire) You may have to repeat this and it's fine. Other options in addition to this is you can work with saints Archangel Raphael is known as the heal and Saint Dymphna is the patron saint of those with any kind of mental illness or nervous disorder. As far as meditation I like a technique called square or box breathing. They even teach it in certain branches of the military. Basically all you do is slowly breath in to the count of four. hold it for four. breath out for four. Hold it again for four before breathing in again. It's truly the only thing that has worked for me and it has a strong effect even if you set a timer for only five minutes at a time. Here is a good article on it with a video https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/321805.php#why-breath-is-vital-to-health I wish you luck and healing.
I will use all of these. C/PTSD. Did all the therapy. After a life changing event there was a time of cognitive dissonance. After learning who I am and not who I was told I am, I'm learning how to work with my neurology, astrology, psychology and anything else that will be truly effective.