I've too long a story to reveal in one post at fifty... Jeez almost fifty five years old. I'm returning to the metaphysical having left in a way for a long time. You never really leave once you know what you know what you know, you know? At any rate, I'm a Roman Catholic who transitioned to Gnostic Christianity. Marian centric I've still so much to learn academically. Thankfully that's my forte. My problem lies in my anger.
Now bear with me. I'm a Capricorn with Scorpio rising. I have a lot of other planets that soften it really to the point I've been physically, emotional, sexually etc abused. It came to a head with a crisis at fifty and I hit cognitive dissonance and got to this place I call IDGAF, level: Sage. While not a jerk, I can cut the meanest down in seconds. I can find their weakness and pluck it out. I enjoy having personal power and being willing to use it finally but the anger... Ugh. I get away from the rage (triggered by the situation that occurred) of victimization of someone and it just told it of my mouth. I have no fear.
I don't want that karma. I don't want that to get away from me and hit people who don't deserve it. While I believe in righteous anger,I also believe "sin not in your anger" and I'm hella sinning.
I'm just wondering what others do. Spells, affirmations etc. (regular meditation is difficult as I have neurology issue. Short stuff is good).
I don't want to stop being a warrior. I just need discernment over emotion.
Thanks for reading.